life is not easy

skang aku asa sgt2 bhgia n happy..y..?bcos i have lutut by my side.=)).really love him
but biasa laa..dlm happy..da gak la prob an..sal kure2,,dia sgt da mslah.,.sgt sdih tgok dia n aku dh brainwashed otak dia td..skng dia tdo sbb nngis..pity her,,,,,xpla..dia pon bkn slalu gtaw feeling dia..td dia gtaw aku lpas aku mrh2 dlu memula..hey,,thats my way..=)
n bout that liar..hm~seems like shes trying to change..i can see dat..but i don know,,
xtualy..if dia dh brubah pon..aty aku dh tawar  la~dh xdak tmpat ntuk dia..aku dh biasa xda dia..aku xmaw asa dh skit cm2...n aku jijik bla aku ingt blik suma msg2 dia dlu as 'mada'..xkra la dia da feeling plik2 or x tme 2..aku still xleh trima..dia selfish sbb biar aku trikat ngan dia 2 tahun cam org bdoh..dia kta dia tkot tme 2.tp dia leh xikat aku sbnrnya tp bla ingt blik sumanya ,bkn stakat dia bdohkan aku tp dia sja xbg aku lpas even pndg org len..dia mmg sngja...but its ok..suma dh lpas..tp nk trima dia..not dat easy

ok n ok..

haishh..ingat nk brenti kgiatan blogging..but..hmmphh..smething force me to post..
1st of all,bout her..yeahh her..y i must keep thinking bout her?xtualy..i hate her with all my heart till theres no place 2 her..but i think i should give her another chance..yeah..im trying to but cant ever 4get bout what was happened..feel like reviling her but...theres no point,,it just useless...
she wont give up..ok..let c how long u can keep begging me n sustain to hear my revile....i hate u ok..i hate u!
mybe they can accept u back into their life but they dont feel what i got..it just so awful!
ergghhh,,,,but dont wory..u still have that chance..it just bout time..it will takes 2 or 3 years or more ..or never..
keep wishing betrayer..

n...
ne cta sal laen plakkk...cita pa..tngguuuu bla sya rajinn.
hahaha

idop yg bgos

wahhhh..ttba plak aku ajin nk post entry ne npa..?hahaha..xtualy...xda letop2 story pon..sja ja..bosan sgt..just now..intan tgh bwat assignment while aku sdap2 tea c green ja on9..canteeek pnya ika..mmg cntik..wahaa..=P
xtualy ada jgk crita criti ne..1st,,lma jgk la tp xdla lma mna pon..aku dh taw suma cita n till now...unacceptable pnya crita n it will nver b 4get..ok,,aku admit,,aku mmg dh maafkan spa2 yg bkenaan,,,n mmg aku nk bebaik ngan pmpuan e2,,tp mslahnya..aku xbleh nk lyn dia baik2..asa nk mlenting ja bla dia ntar msg even sbnrnya aku nk bls..tp bla nk reply ja...ttba ada prasaan mnyampah plak bla tringat smanya..so dat..i jez need sme more tme 2 allow u back into my life even just as kwn biasa...tahu.?hmph....n lg..hri 2 ada la meeting blok....ttba saya dlantik mnjdi bndhari blok..mmg lah aku ne btnggungjwb sgt kan....adoiiii..nseb bek bndahari blok.collect duit ja...hahaha...........klu jd bndhari level xpa jgk..xdla bnyak sgt duit aku pgang..ne x...huh..hahaha..btw,,intanch jdi ajk kselamatan blok n ikin jdi ajk aduan....wah..jwtan sgt besar ye...tp 3~3 ekor ne xpnh wat kja plak..=PPPP
n ada lg 1 meeting..meeting psatuan FIASO or fine art society which im the one who gave this name...bngga plak zulaikha ne..mna xnya..xsngka la kan org plih nma aku ksi 2..bluerk2..klaka pon ada..hri 2 ada meeting...
bwat la selection ntuk jdi ajk2 nya...FINE...mmg lah aku ne xpsal2 jdi setiausaha fiaso kan..mmg sya sgt mnat!dh la aku xtaw cmana nk wat mnit msyuarat!ughhhh.........xpa2..i'll try lah...xtualy bknnya dorg suggest nma aku sbb aku dh warning..klu x aku xnk ckp ngan dorg..mmg la dorg xsuggest!lecturer yg suggest......................................................................tgojut aku..dorg xtaw ka aku ne xlyak wat kja sbb aku ne PEMALAS

yeah..at last

ok,,this could b my last post in this blog bcos,aku rsa dh xda mkna kan..nk bgtaw spa pon kan..
so,,everythings settled,,alhamdulillah la kan..=PP...ok lah..i've nothing 2 say....daaaa.....

well..it doesn't mean that i can't b reachable..just 4 some of u..ok?
daaa..

little girl vs lady

ola...xtualy xda bnda nk taip pon..ne pon sbb sgt2 dh x bleh blah dgn idup yg sgt bsan ne........
so aku amik kputusan yg sgt pnting nee..ntuk taip blog eventhough xda cta pon sbnrnya...xtualy aku
ne lbih kpd fkir sal previous life aku...chilhood aku..tme bebas aku....sgt3 rndu.....................
tp aku xnk la pgi skol blik..cma umor zman skol 2 sgt best.....tme skol xbest..blik skol best..weekend pon best..zman tdika xpyh kta la kan..lg syok...g tdika bkan bwat apa pon..mlukis,,mwarna..gnting2 n tampal..msa main.....syok...dlu aku sgt gnas..pnh buli bdak tdika aku n aku kwn ngan laki kbnyakannya..=PP
its not life aku xfree skrg...lg bebas dr dlu..tp dr segi nk pgi mna2 la kan..tp ntuk  otak aku,,tnga aku xbebas.....
n bnda2 yg aku bleh main pon dh kurang n xinteresting..kna gna duit la...mcm2...n lg 1..mls sbb dh xdak geng nk memain......msa pon kna gna sbtol2nya..xkan cti ne nk rhat ja kot?mst la kna bwat smething ntuk next sem kan?
ahh....prangai pon slowly changed...xda mood....mls...tkot itam la,...xda kwn la....rndu jgk tme aktif skipping gla babi 2..........n aku pling ska dlu2.......................aku xpnh fkir psal couple2 ne..ska mcmana pon..xkan kpel....geli...n not the right tme,,,best gla,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,pa aku bebel ne??????ntah la..bsan pnya psal hbis aku mlalut...SUKATI MAK BAPAK AKU LA..BLOG AKU

bnda yg pling aku bnci....

nk taw x bnda pling aku bnci dlm dnia ne apa??penipu,ksah2 tipu,lies,liar,cheater,cheating,pembohong,bnda2 bohong,,xjujur,pecah amanah..smuanya dlm ktegori yg sma..bnda yg xbnar..bnda yg slh.....i could understand if tpu ntuk mlawak n in a short time,,kta dh taw kbnarannya n bg kta gelak,,bg kta hepy.....ntuk suprise ke apa kan...xtualy tpu ne apa ha??n ntuk apa?ttup kelemahan,knonnya ntuk kbhagiaan org len,tamak,ntuk kpentingan dri n HOBI,...n len2...yg mybe reasonnya bnyak lg knp org mnipu,,,seriously,aku xska org mcm ne.....y?sbb im not in this category..aku xska tpu....n aku xkan tpu ntuk sbb di atas...........org2 pnipu ne usually dia xkan ksah klu kna tpu..y??sbb dia pon sma..so my dia memahami c penipu 2...aku ada xperience dtpu...n aku ada xperience menipu....xpcya..tnya besfren2 aku..they knew everything..kan?klu bab mnipu..zty taw bla,knp n mcmana aku mnipu..sbb tme 2 zman jahiliah..zman drjah 4..leh kta majoriti bdak klas aku mnipu..mreka2 crita nk bg jlan crita dorg interesting..=P..so am i,i've done the sme thing..as well as me,,zty pon..tpu..MSA DRJAH 4..then bla kta dh bsar,,otak pon dh mtang kan..thu mna baik mna bruk..mna yg ptot n xptot...so,,aku n zty dh mnghentikan kgiatan jenayah tersebut..but,,bla aku msok form 1,,nora iwana..classmate aku drjah 4 n form 1 till form 2,,,xpcya dgn apa yg aku crita smpi la aku form 3..sbb aku pnh mnipu dlu n dia kta dia xpcya apa yg kluar dr mlut aku despite aku crita bnda btol..2 la blasan sbb aku mnipu dlu..tp sriusly..start form 1..aku dh stop n xpnh nk tpu.....mlawak2 2 ada la....tp org akan taw bnda btolnya lpas 2 sbb aku sndri gtaw,,,,bla aku dh stop mnipu..aku plak kna tpu n i dont think it's a good idea nk cta bnda 2 sbb very snstif i think...bkn aku..tp mereka2 e2.........tp lpas aku kna tpu..bg aku 2 pnipuan pling bsar,,pling skit pnh aku rsa...sbb i nver expected...n lpas 2,,paranoid..smpi skrg still have doubt.......................................................tp aku asa lg better aku ada feeling mcm 2.....so that aku x 10o% pcya kt org len....bla kta tpu,,kta tpaksa tpu bkali2...n  at da sme tme kta tpu dri kta sndr...tpu bleh bwak kpd curi..tpu 2 dosa bsar ok!bleh jd fitnah pon....bleh mmcahblahkan org2 skeliling kta pon....bleh rsak relationship mcmana yg aku rsa skrg..aku dh jd kurang rpat dgn org2 yg aku doubt...sory 2 say....n aku bleh rapt ngan org yg xpnh tpu aku.....knp aku snstif gla bab ne?mmg..sbb aku xpnh rsa xdtpu....aku lrus sgt ka?myb....skit gla bla kna tpu.............lg2 dgn org yg sgt3 kta prcya..................tp org 2 nk insaf..n bgtaw kbnaran..bleh trima x?myb..dri kta taw sndr bnda yg btolnya....lg geram,,skit aty,,mrh,bnci n rsa mcm org bdoh....im not aiming this to anybody...im just spitting out my feeling...n ego...bkn msalah bsar sgt kan?lg better smpan n pendam pa yg kta rsa n bnda yg kta bleh pndam..jnji jgn tpu............................tpu psal feeling sndri?aku xpnh tpu..mmg 2 pa yg aku rsa......kan??

miaaaaoooooooooooooowwwww

cute x??ahaha...ne kcing2 bru umah aku...xtualy dh lma umah aku xda kcing kcik sbb b4 dis bela black sekor ja n beliau jantan,,hehe..tp dh mati la..sdih sgt..then,,ttba ada la sekor KATI(kucing asing tanpa izin)  ne dok slalu lpak umah aku wat cam umah sndri,,lpas black mati,,bru ktorg bela jla dia ne..n dia betina..till now,,xda nma..sian kan..tp bg mkn cam biasa la..ttba dia branak plak dh,,3 ekor..chumell..scara rsminya...KATI betukar kpd KTR(kucing tuan rumah)..hehe..nma xbg2 jgk..xpla kan...pnggil kcing ja dh...anak dia yg itam 2 aku ltak nma black maria..hahahahahaha,yg len 2 mls la..org len pnya..aku pnya yg itam 2..mnja....skaaaaa...............hehe..n talk bout cat.......ada sorg bdak ne..dgr2 dia tkot kcing..mmg xgelak habis la kan bla ija cita kat aku..hahahaha..klaka la beliau 2..ahahhahahahahhahahha...sumpah lwk....nk cta??xpyh r....cmelnya dia tkot kcing..=PP